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middle of the night post while Bug murmels himself to sleep after his 430 am snack.

Someone on my fb feed was "we should have sympathy for rob ford, he's a substance abuser, he shouldn't be mocked!" really? Sure. We'll just carry on with his "Immma get tough on drug users and criminals" by cozying up to them. "Imma get tough on drug users" by being one of them. "Imma gonna stop overspending at city hall" By....hiring a guy for twice what others get paid and doling out 5k bonuses, blowing our surplus, raising taxes to cover a go nowhere subway that currys favor in the one place that votes for him. "I'm a man of the people" mr daddy's given him a job/well to do. "I love this city" mr cyclists, its not a big deal if they get killed/mock the downtown and cry the suburbs have it rough/homophobic, racist, "I work hard!" barely shows up to events or his office.

Yeah. Boo fucking hoo. He got himself into this mess and our patience is run thin with him when he offers empty apology after apology as if that clears the slate, drags his heels to make sure council is disrupted, blusters and bellows with his idiot jackass brother like two boys way in over their heads.

I've lived with hard core alcoholics, and after a while, you run out of patience and sometimes you have to cut them away because they'll drag you down with them and that's the situation now. People are FED UP. ( well, aside from the "he saved me 60 bucks!he's just a man of the people, he's not afraid to tell it like it is" which I swear if I hear one squeak from a ford nation boob about how his little pissant cul de sac wasn't plowed first this winter....

Its hard watching the city I am fond of being reduced to a laughingstock by mayor mcbumblefuck.

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Bug has conked out, warm and fuzzy in robot pajamas. He's so cute its absurd.

(there are brief moments in this city of multicultural and mixed race babies, where he's the ONLY blue eyed blonde kid and I feel a bit weird because he so much the stereotype baby like that. Adorable, but odd in a way I can't explain. There's lots of supercute ones in the city we meet on our walks.)

Anyway. We're happy. I think I didn't realize how much the pregnancy losses hit me, till we had him. Its not that I needed a child to be fulfilled or whatever, but looking at the near impossibility that is adoption in this country would send me to tears. I had accepted that we were unlikely to have a kid and while I wasn't happy with the outcome, we were moving on.

But now that he's here I honestly can't imagine it any other way. He's a lot of fun and a lot of work. I am perpetually amazed by his working out the world around him, and what he likes and doesn't like, this wee personality shaping before our eyes.

Stories of mistreated kids hits me harder because I look at him and I think if anyone harmed a hair on his head I'd guarantee they'd not leave the scene in any form of workable condition. I was beaten and smacked and emotionally abused as a kid, my mom had anger issues. She's better now, she's trying to make up for it, ( we laughed when she bought a stroller toy for stirling, because she didn't want him to be the only kid without one. Back as I was a kid, that would never have happened!)

I want him to have a good life, a fair life, not always a perfect life. I expect him to learn what failure feels like, what tenacity and keeping going is like, what it's like to graciously lose. I want him to know he's the center of our universe, but not everyone else's.

Its interesting being a downtown baby. We know the barista and the clerks we see often, and people are generally quite helpful and smiling and charmed by him. We feel as welcome and home here as if we lived in a suburb. There's this "THING" where people seem to imply the only place to raise a child is in the burbs but its so not true. It works for lots of people but we'd go bonkers being so far from our work/school/life.

OK, monster has awoken, time to go for a walk.

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someone today reminded me "toronto's not the center of the universe, you know."

Well of course I know. But you aptly demonstrated that outside ontario/GTA, that the running joke of "everyone hates toronto" is alive and well, and we take those digs with humor. Everyone fucking slags on Toronto. Toronto is full of shitty arrogant people. Toronto's full of assholes. Toronto just SUCKS.

You know how I know this attitude persists? Because you keep reminding us. Something happens in Vancouver, montreal or halifax, its just news. If it happens here, well that just goes to show how shitty it is here.

Y'know what's shitty? Most of the people have never visited, they just hear how shit toronto is, and therefor why bother.

And yes, we're mocking our mayor. Trying to sell me a "poor robbie ford he's got substance abuse issues" tale? I don't fucking care. He's a wart. And nice try positing that the stress of the job drove him to it, and to being so fucking large. he was a rude, bigoted ignorant fatass before, with substance abuse issues and a bully mentality before he was mayor, he won't change.

This person in question is a social worker sort activist...spare me sister. He needs no bleeding hearts. Go focus on people who want help, not this noxious arsehole. He wouldn't appreciate your heartfelt pleas.

"but he lied to save his job". Gee, that's mighty...something of him. I don't have respect for politicians caught nailing a rent boy while they tout bibles and family values and the dangers of gay sex, either.

Integrity. Apparently not so much a virtue any more.