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Jan. 10th, 2013 07:12 pmupdate....havent been online much as the nausea hit epic levels again, due to the ER doc cutting doses on my scripts. fuck.
My high risk obgyn was a bit horrified by the 3kilo ) 22lb weight loss and bumped the doses up. And if I need to be re hydrated and can't eat, i skip the ER and they'll arrange direct admission. I'm still struggling with the appetite/food/hydration so its a matter of time before I'm in again, I'm sure.
Classes started up again. Meh. Just so tired, from the meds and not eating.
Ultrasound: shows a kicking legs a flailing arms and all the basic parts in place, and no indicator of downs, yet, and a bit of me was hoping for reason to end this misery but then again, we're at aplace I never imagined possible and the med team is busy getting me through this, because yeah, been hit HARD with hyperemesis. Not so much the vomiting but when that happens, holy fuck, but the constant nausea....
I am not posting anything to FB till week 20-22, mostly because I don't want a flurry of "yay jeeeeebus!miracle" replies and I'm much too tired lately to post or deal with notifications. This wasn't a miracle, this was science and just once, the odds on our side. Gods, god, had fuck all to do with it, frankly the bastard can fuck right off. Credit goes to science.
Anyway. tonight ate something of a normal meal, shocker, I know. But I've barely eaten solid food in six weeks, so I'm hoping this stays down. I'm just dragging myself through the days.
Its really depressing and demoralizing to be so so run down. I'm told for even the worst of HG it dies off at 16-18 weeks. Ugh. Soon, right? just shy of 13 now.
Next US we find out what we're having. Unlike BC, they tell you here. Like that. No paternalistic bullshit. I really have to give epic cred to my high risk team.
So that's all that's new. Not expending much energy unless I have to, because I simply don't HAVE it.
My high risk obgyn was a bit horrified by the 3kilo ) 22lb weight loss and bumped the doses up. And if I need to be re hydrated and can't eat, i skip the ER and they'll arrange direct admission. I'm still struggling with the appetite/food/hydration so its a matter of time before I'm in again, I'm sure.
Classes started up again. Meh. Just so tired, from the meds and not eating.
Ultrasound: shows a kicking legs a flailing arms and all the basic parts in place, and no indicator of downs, yet, and a bit of me was hoping for reason to end this misery but then again, we're at aplace I never imagined possible and the med team is busy getting me through this, because yeah, been hit HARD with hyperemesis. Not so much the vomiting but when that happens, holy fuck, but the constant nausea....
I am not posting anything to FB till week 20-22, mostly because I don't want a flurry of "yay jeeeeebus!miracle" replies and I'm much too tired lately to post or deal with notifications. This wasn't a miracle, this was science and just once, the odds on our side. Gods, god, had fuck all to do with it, frankly the bastard can fuck right off. Credit goes to science.
Anyway. tonight ate something of a normal meal, shocker, I know. But I've barely eaten solid food in six weeks, so I'm hoping this stays down. I'm just dragging myself through the days.
Its really depressing and demoralizing to be so so run down. I'm told for even the worst of HG it dies off at 16-18 weeks. Ugh. Soon, right? just shy of 13 now.
Next US we find out what we're having. Unlike BC, they tell you here. Like that. No paternalistic bullshit. I really have to give epic cred to my high risk team.
So that's all that's new. Not expending much energy unless I have to, because I simply don't HAVE it.
