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Mar. 20th, 2012 08:52 pmgoing through a down phase of creative self-flagellation as I seem to consistently not meet my instructor's fantasy ideals and arbitrary marking schemes. I'm fucking burned out big. Love the work, hate the college bullshit thing.
But my fish pendant is gathering accolades in the studio as it progresses. I only hope it pays off. I keep trying to improve and I feel like I get consistently drifted down.
I don't like failure. Someone described me as "intense" and there's probably reason for that.
Eh. 4 more weeks.
Got my new docs.:D happy boots. SEXY BOOTS YO.
Suppose you're wanting the song of the day, those of you who don't read this, because I'm certain no one is, haha.
Monday: Rotersand: Almost Violent
Tuesday: Edge of Dawn: Stage fright.
Today was a a peripheral vision eye exam at 10 am. I was up at fuckoclock am, lecture, lab, off to the exam arrive 10 min early and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait. over an hour later I go in. Tech can't adjust the machine, and then when she does, she still can't quite settle on it, and then we go. And then I see the "you're tired" spots in my eyes and the reaction time has dropped as the fatigue hits. I can see the tests's dots, i just cannot will my hand to click the button.
So livid, I said "forget it" and walked out. They were "oh the person before you had trouble too!" So...YOU IGNORE ME FOR AN HOUR. FUCKERS. I don't plan on rescheduling. I see them in a year, they have their baseline, they can get bent otherwise. I'm sending the clinic a nice email on why leaving people sitting for an hour sucks. and you KNEW i was there.
I came home and slept 5 hours. I fucking HATE tuesdays. Only 3 more of them to go for this term.
But my fish pendant is gathering accolades in the studio as it progresses. I only hope it pays off. I keep trying to improve and I feel like I get consistently drifted down.
I don't like failure. Someone described me as "intense" and there's probably reason for that.
Eh. 4 more weeks.
Got my new docs.:D happy boots. SEXY BOOTS YO.
Suppose you're wanting the song of the day, those of you who don't read this, because I'm certain no one is, haha.
Monday: Rotersand: Almost Violent
Tuesday: Edge of Dawn: Stage fright.
Today was a a peripheral vision eye exam at 10 am. I was up at fuckoclock am, lecture, lab, off to the exam arrive 10 min early and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait. over an hour later I go in. Tech can't adjust the machine, and then when she does, she still can't quite settle on it, and then we go. And then I see the "you're tired" spots in my eyes and the reaction time has dropped as the fatigue hits. I can see the tests's dots, i just cannot will my hand to click the button.
So livid, I said "forget it" and walked out. They were "oh the person before you had trouble too!" So...YOU IGNORE ME FOR AN HOUR. FUCKERS. I don't plan on rescheduling. I see them in a year, they have their baseline, they can get bent otherwise. I'm sending the clinic a nice email on why leaving people sitting for an hour sucks. and you KNEW i was there.
I came home and slept 5 hours. I fucking HATE tuesdays. Only 3 more of them to go for this term.
