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another marathon day at the studio, because having 5 swage block kits for 50 people is SO GENIUS.

( block for making rivet tubing). Takes a good 4 hours. People signed them out over break and never came in to use or return em.

But my casting rubber mold is done. My tubing is done. My prototype is ALMOST Done. I have some studying to do, ( which lets be honest never gets done mon/tues) and that's like IT. A second half of a practical exam on thurs which I'm fairly well set to finish.

I think part of it, is the new bench spot, where I don't have people AT my desk constantly. If someone wants my attention, I hold up fingers for "2-3 minutes" because whatever they need, it can wait.

Your song of the day, with my aching fingers and back and shoulders ( fingers took a few hits with the mallet..) Tankt: surveillance. An interesting little thing on the whole "reality tv/candid show/15 min fame" thing in society. As much as I'm a fan of amazing race ( now more than ever since its easy for me to go "NO you're going the wrong way) the proliferation of every halfwit and fool like the kardashians having some need to be on TV and people broadcasting for all to see ( relatively speaking I'm a fairly private person)...anyway. writing calls.

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5k short story that's erotica more or less but great fun to put two of my mainstay characters who I knew would play off each other well, and lo.

( seriously I don't feel I have much control. if I try to force the characters to bend to my will the writing falls flat.)

Anyway. Alas it's unlikely to find a home or market, and its not something I can see releasing, so who knows. It'll just hang around.

Got another non X short to play with in the same universe, have several ideas to keep my writing going during the plotting break. I finished a wallet chain tonight too.

I really did miss the writing, and I needed my own time to come back to it.:D I think it's made me a stronger, better, more confident writer too.

sleep calls. I ache. I pushed SO hard, and its two days in, and i have no assignments due so I'm going to go to lecture then take a personal day. ( and do some studying but that's easy.)

I can't be broken and aching for thursday with that other half of the practical.

Hot shower first. Then sweet bliss and sleep.

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today was such a fucking clusterfuck of epic fuckery.

there are 5 swage block kits.( thing for making metal tubing)
50 students

well, do the math.

yesterday, Girl loaned K the kit, who said I could use it, but then noodled off and someone else needed it so I said fine, V, you can use it since I got a loan of the one from L, and that way we BOTH can do our work.

In theory this would have worked except V forgets to tell me she's simply LEFT it in the silversmithing room and the tech office last night was flipping their shit. Typically the logical thing is to TELL the next person or hand them the tools/kit. But V doesn't. So I am unaware who's now got custody. lala not my problem, right? I didn't KNOW it was there.

SO.

Today, I get accosted by Girl and 3 others wondering why I left the kit there where was it! yap yap yap yap. In the loo. Like full court press and I couldn't get a word in so I said "I can't TALK over ALL of you." I walked off. Not my problem.

Then S starts in, and then more people start in because someone's getting their ass handed to em and they've made the narrative up that it's to be me.

So again, Girl asks separately what happened and just as I open my mouth GENESSSA starts in and I go "oh, fuck it." and walk away.

Seriously. What is wrong that people just don't let me have MY SAY?

I should just go back to what I did when I was in elementary, and say so little they thought I was mute because here we are 30 years later and people STILL WON"T LET ME HAVE A FUCKING SAY.

FUCKING FUCK man.

Anyway. I did nothing wrong. I told V to go ahead that I didn't need that block kit so whatever, not my fucking fault.

There is the whole wisdom in only 5 kits, and today everyone's in panic mode and I am DONE hahahahahahaha.

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So now ALL the women in the studio are in some flapping tizzy that SOMEONE MUST ANSWER for the missing block kit.

Gee. If you had ALL FUCKING LISTENED, BITCHES.

I let VICTORIA go ahead with using that block first as she said there was one more person in line after her who wanted it. SO. In order to NOT hold up the block's movement through class. Because LAURA had offered to let me use hers, and it just happened to be timed so that Victoria was using one, while I was able to use the one LAURA finished with.

WHAT I THINK happened: Victoria seemed to not parse this idea of "no I don't need yours." And LEFT IT FUCKING SITTING THERE IN THE FUCKING SILVERSMITHING ROOM.

AND DID NOT FUCKING TELL ME. WHich is fucking stupid because you could damn well put it on my bench, or TELL Me and you did neither and how was it, dear lass, that I was to know? I walked by and I don't recall seeing it sitting there but I was kind of tired so maybe I didn't know.

But presuming I should know? and now I'm getting bombarded on FB with snitty demands for explanations no one wanted to even hear hours ago, from people not involved? FUCK off.

We don't need to have a conversation on tool rental. We need to have a conversation on not assuming your classmates know your every fucking move.

I'm so done with these fools. More and more of them started jumping in and talking over me, which means they had a narrative in their head and whatever I had to offer was simply irrelevant. And asking me hours later for "I want an explanation". well no, you want to pin it on me. Victoria rolled her stuff,and left. She said NOT ONE WORD when she was done with that block so enlighten me on how i was to know she was done, and that it was waiting.

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The worst part of all this, aside from the reversion to high school swarm and bully tactics, is that tomorrow they think they're going to be all proactive with a discussion.

Yeah. Because I walked away from two situations, three, where people tangentally related to the issue, or directly involved, decided my say wasn't worth listening to.

AAAND once again, its not guys. Women are mean, nasty catty little things who can't resolve an issue without drama. The women stirred themselves up after I left. If any blame is on my part, it MIGHT have been in...oh... wait. I never had possession of the kit at any point. All victoria had to do was tell me it was sitting there and I'd have picked it up, but I was under the understanding someone ELSE needed and the smart thing would have been to just heads-up someone and if she had, I haven't any recollection of it. ( that and LEAVING TOOLS?) fuh? what?

I seriously fucking hate people. The last kicker was genessa cutting me off too. Excellento.

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was going to stay up and write a bit.

Still frazzulated.
Rotersand: if you don't stop it.