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I came home with the plan to get stuff done, and got hit with the pain stick. Not pregnant but still things are weird whatever.

R got a Kobo Vox, but I think I'm still eyeing an ipad, to be honest. i don't generally do e-books as much as I balk at the 16.99 e-price, like um, its a fart of data, not a dead tree. be real here.

Still kind of stressed and depressed and I didn't want my school experience to go that way but its been such an epic clusterfuck that I might go get counselling because I seriously need to offload a slew of arrggg.

From the china trip and the pre trip and post trip stress, drama boy and his bullshit earlier, genessa's idiocy, and I'm kind of at my end of my tether, to be honest.

Just get through this term and then its only 3 more. Sure! They go by fast enough so that's fucking merciful. I am so over academia, it can suck my metal ass. I have no interest in academic bullshittery that seems to accompany honest attempts to learn. Save the mindgames, i'm fucking over it.

And I'm just starting to be more ruthless on weeding out the people who seem hell bent on cutting me down when I don't play dutiful lackey and ego puffer to them. I'm tired of people who seem to exist solely to be selfish asshats, and I don't need that shit.

So onwards. 6 more weeks till winter break. then three or so weeks off. It'll be ok.I can do this. But no way am I applying for third year. FUCK THAT NOISE.

I know I'm good at what I do, and I have to stop listening to people who want to convince me otherwise. I've climbed the great wall, navigated three countries where I do not speak the language, lived in one of them for 3 months, this surely can't knock me down I am stronger than they think.

I do hate the "practice! but hey there's only enough cheap metal for one go at the project, chumps!" crap. I get that there's no such thing as unlimited metal but honestly? fucking what? Time to buy some spare metal as Genessa raids the scrap bins like a bastard and there's rarely anything useable in there for the rest of us.

I'm tired of dealing with people who think that we should be world class jewelers from go, and turning out that sort of work on one pass. This is jewelery, not heart surgery. No one dies if we make a mistake, and all our errors can be fixed. Its just a fucking ring, its not life or death.

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I came home with the plan to get stuff done, and got hit with the pain stick. Not pregnant but still things are weird whatever.

R got a Kobo Vox, but I think I'm still eyeing an ipad, to be honest. i don't generally do e-books as much as I balk at the 16.99 e-price, like um, its a fart of data, not a dead tree. be real here.

Still kind of stressed and depressed and I didn't want my school experience to go that way but its been such an epic clusterfuck that I might go get counselling because I seriously need to offload a slew of arrggg.

From the china trip and the pre trip and post trip stress, drama boy and his bullshit earlier, genessa's idiocy, and I'm kind of at my end of my tether, to be honest.

Just get through this term and then its only 3 more. Sure! They go by fast enough so that's fucking merciful. I am so over academia, it can suck my metal ass. I have no interest in academic bullshittery that seems to accompany honest attempts to learn. Save the mindgames, i'm fucking over it.

And I'm just starting to be more ruthless on weeding out the people who seem hell bent on cutting me down when I don't play dutiful lackey and ego puffer to them. I'm tired of people who seem to exist solely to be selfish asshats, and I don't need that shit.

So onwards. 6 more weeks till winter break. then three or so weeks off. It'll be ok.I can do this. But no way am I applying for third year. FUCK THAT NOISE.

I know I'm good at what I do, and I have to stop listening to people who want to convince me otherwise. I've climbed the great wall, navigated three countries where I do not speak the language, lived in one of them for 3 months, this surely can't knock me down I am stronger than they think.

I do hate the "practice! but hey there's only enough cheap metal for one go at the project, chumps!" crap. I get that there's no such thing as unlimited metal but honestly? fucking what? Time to buy some spare metal as Genessa raids the scrap bins like a bastard and there's rarely anything useable in there for the rest of us.

I'm tired of dealing with people who think that we should be world class jewelers from go, and turning out that sort of work on one pass. This is jewelery, not heart surgery. No one dies if we make a mistake, and all our errors can be fixed. Its just a fucking ring, its not life or death.