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I’ve been swamped with working, or trying to work, juggling the various meetings and appointments and classes and errands, and then hit with panic attacks. at one point 2-3 a day. I’ve gone now almost two days without, and today’s the first day in weeks it hasn’t felt like i was on the verge of it all day, and maybe now we’re getting somewhere.

I seem to get them in cycles 2-3x a year and this one was vicious and extended, probably due to all the travel, the jet lag, the whole emotional drop kick of my mother passing. Not that I’m traumatized by her passing, but the wreckage she left behind, the wreckage of my life in regards to her. its complicated.

I’ll be ok. I just need to stay on a schedule, work, focus, and get on with things. I need some calm. There’s just never ending EVERYTHING and i’m sort of over it.