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Feb. 1st, 2012 11:08 pmI give up. I really do.
My life is apparently to be perfect and flawless and I never make an error and I never make a single mistake, but everyone swoops in on me like I'm the moron.
I'm tired of running to and from school, and long hours and long lectures and come home and I'm expected to be neat and organized and perky and wonderful and nothing EVER goes wrong for anyone else like misplacing something. Only I do that, which is example of how much of a failure I am as a human for consistently failing to be perfect.
I spent HOURS today on my studio work, and the fucking brooch man. I have my earphones in, I'm battling it out and this goddamn fucktard J just WILL NOT GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HAIR, and oh, hey, someone wandered off with the tweezers for the acid bath pot and OH HAI NICO YOUR BENCH IS RIGHT HERE SO WE SHOULD CHAT, or fling water on me because everyone shakes their hands back and sprays me.
why should anyone give a shit for me, after all the fucking effort I put forth? G won't goddamn let me get any work done on this report, she just keeps flapping her hands and chanting off death tolls. I GET IT. FOR FUCKS SAKE MOVE THE FUCK ON I CAN READ THE FUCKING NOTES. ( of course its due in 5 days and she JUST emailed me her material so I can add mine. LIKE FUCK. And one on friday which three people offered to present and I have no idea what's up because I'm in a group with N the procrastinator extraordinaire, and nothing to my knowledge has been done. I didn't take lead because I don't have time or interest.
I'm tired of being the GO TO person but when I fail or need help, its "WE EXPECT BETTER OF YOU WE ARE SO DISAPPOINTED."
I'm not sure if I'll go in early to fix the brooch. I should but I'm so frustrated by it.
I just want some fucking solitude to work.
I'm sorry I suck as a human being. I'll try harder to meet everyone else's needs.
SOTD: Midnight Resistance: Recall these Days. ( no reason just the first un assigned song that popped up.)
My life is apparently to be perfect and flawless and I never make an error and I never make a single mistake, but everyone swoops in on me like I'm the moron.
I'm tired of running to and from school, and long hours and long lectures and come home and I'm expected to be neat and organized and perky and wonderful and nothing EVER goes wrong for anyone else like misplacing something. Only I do that, which is example of how much of a failure I am as a human for consistently failing to be perfect.
I spent HOURS today on my studio work, and the fucking brooch man. I have my earphones in, I'm battling it out and this goddamn fucktard J just WILL NOT GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HAIR, and oh, hey, someone wandered off with the tweezers for the acid bath pot and OH HAI NICO YOUR BENCH IS RIGHT HERE SO WE SHOULD CHAT, or fling water on me because everyone shakes their hands back and sprays me.
why should anyone give a shit for me, after all the fucking effort I put forth? G won't goddamn let me get any work done on this report, she just keeps flapping her hands and chanting off death tolls. I GET IT. FOR FUCKS SAKE MOVE THE FUCK ON I CAN READ THE FUCKING NOTES. ( of course its due in 5 days and she JUST emailed me her material so I can add mine. LIKE FUCK. And one on friday which three people offered to present and I have no idea what's up because I'm in a group with N the procrastinator extraordinaire, and nothing to my knowledge has been done. I didn't take lead because I don't have time or interest.
I'm tired of being the GO TO person but when I fail or need help, its "WE EXPECT BETTER OF YOU WE ARE SO DISAPPOINTED."
I'm not sure if I'll go in early to fix the brooch. I should but I'm so frustrated by it.
I just want some fucking solitude to work.
I'm sorry I suck as a human being. I'll try harder to meet everyone else's needs.
SOTD: Midnight Resistance: Recall these Days. ( no reason just the first un assigned song that popped up.)
